My heart is full.
It's a serene feeling really.
Nothing can touch me unless I give it permission.
I've felt this feeling before and it's only when I take refuge in the shadow of my Savior. The feeling of not needing anyone or anything.
I don't need riches.
I don't need to be entertained.
I don't need things.
I don't need salted caramel mochas.
I don't need a man (this was the hardest to admit).
All above statements are what I find personal happiness in. There are much more I could add but those are what come to mind. I can only say these things because my heart is full. Full with Jesus' mad love. He is my true source of joy.
I have found that nothing is fulfilling without Christ being the center of it. In everything I am doing or desire to do, I want nothing more than a Christ-centered and passionate life and everything else to fall in place after that. Nothing in this world is worth it to me anymore. I don't care if people call me crazy. In fact, CALL ME CRAZY! That's what I want to hear. That at the end of my life people would say that this world held nothing for me. Even the ones I love here on this earth couldn't keep me here any longer if my time came to leave it and spend eternity with Jesus. My soul yearns to be there.
I just pray that I would not get lost in the pleasures of this world again. In the world but not of the world. Such a hard verse to live by if I were on my own. My eyes have been opened and I am willing to admit that I NEED nothing less than Jesus.
All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong
Happy Monday everyone!
xo
Monday, March 25, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
That sappy stuff
I think it's the sweetest thing whenever I see husbands post on FB or Instagram about how blessed they are to have such a godly, gentle, passionate, beautiful, and fun wife to journey through life with. You can just imagine the smile that swept across their face when they would recall how they first met and how it took him forever to build up the guts to ask her out on a date.
I pray that I can be that kind of wife to my future husband that he can't help but let the world know how lucky he is!
Let's be honest here... I love LOVE. Maybe I've experienced mere glimpses of it in my past relationships with people but I don't think I've come close to tapping into that secret tune that has the world humming love songs or those smiles that come out of nowhere just with the thought of that person. No, I don't think I quite get it yet. Not that I don't want to. I want it, trust me. I just don't want to be in a romantic relationship that will ever distract or take me away from my intimate relationship with God. I've been there and as hard as it was to walk away, I did. To most, this might not make sense. "You don't want a relationship because of your relationship with Jesus?" I know. Kind of confusing. There are many facets of love. The love I'm referring to in this entry is all that sappy stuff. The relationship I have with God is the way a little girl loves her father. Just thought I would clear the air. Hope that did the trick.
Anyways, I hope to marry a man that will display strong facets of who Christ is each new day so the more I fall in love with Christ I will continue to fall more in love with my husband. Someone I can learn from and grow with. That when I look into his eyes there would be a sort of soft form of grace and understanding. His hands ready to serve but ready to lead. A voice that holds authority but a sense of safety for me and our many children. Of course, I want to reciprocate that so I won't be the only one taking away from our relationship. I want to add laughter to his years and a home that he can find rest and support in physically and spiritually. Among other things.
Proverbs 31? You know, where it talks about the wife of noble character. Of course you do! Every Christian woman will hear about it at least once in their life.* That's the kind of woman I strive to be. Maybe one day I'll be able to bless a man like that.
*Or hundreds of times. You may even had to have studied so you could write it word for word with all the correct punctuation for your monthly exam in Biblical Application. No? Oh, well you missed out on some intense late night cramming.
I pray that I can be that kind of wife to my future husband that he can't help but let the world know how lucky he is!
Let's be honest here... I love LOVE. Maybe I've experienced mere glimpses of it in my past relationships with people but I don't think I've come close to tapping into that secret tune that has the world humming love songs or those smiles that come out of nowhere just with the thought of that person. No, I don't think I quite get it yet. Not that I don't want to. I want it, trust me. I just don't want to be in a romantic relationship that will ever distract or take me away from my intimate relationship with God. I've been there and as hard as it was to walk away, I did. To most, this might not make sense. "You don't want a relationship because of your relationship with Jesus?" I know. Kind of confusing. There are many facets of love. The love I'm referring to in this entry is all that sappy stuff. The relationship I have with God is the way a little girl loves her father. Just thought I would clear the air. Hope that did the trick.
Anyways, I hope to marry a man that will display strong facets of who Christ is each new day so the more I fall in love with Christ I will continue to fall more in love with my husband. Someone I can learn from and grow with. That when I look into his eyes there would be a sort of soft form of grace and understanding. His hands ready to serve but ready to lead. A voice that holds authority but a sense of safety for me and our many children. Of course, I want to reciprocate that so I won't be the only one taking away from our relationship. I want to add laughter to his years and a home that he can find rest and support in physically and spiritually. Among other things.
Proverbs 31? You know, where it talks about the wife of noble character. Of course you do! Every Christian woman will hear about it at least once in their life.* That's the kind of woman I strive to be. Maybe one day I'll be able to bless a man like that.
*Or hundreds of times. You may even had to have studied so you could write it word for word with all the correct punctuation for your monthly exam in Biblical Application. No? Oh, well you missed out on some intense late night cramming.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
What's on my mind?
Italy.
Praying about the possibility of going to this beautiful country for 3 months and serving them by teaching ESL and bringing the gospel to the many that live there. If you're interested in joining me on this adventure just let me know...
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
#1 why God is my hero.
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Thursday, May 5, 2011
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